It hurts

My friends always say 'You have one older brother and one older sister. How lucky you are'

Yes, I`m so lucky. I have two siblings and they are sooo aw aw aw awesome :3 ♥

My brother is smart, an activist, a good leader, etc.

My sister is beautiful, smart, calm, etc.

But it hurts when some of you start comparing me esp w/ my sister.

Oke, I know it.

I know that I'm not as beatiful as her.

I'm not as smart as her.

I'm not as calm as her.

I dont even do a great handwriting like she does.

Fyi, she got first rank on her class and top10 on pararel rank on her school, even top3. Oya, and her IPs are about 3,7...; 3,8...; and 3,9... Almost 4!!!

Not only that, she got 550 for toefl score.

You can imagine how smart she is. But dont ever imagine that she is a bookworm. She actives at TPHP's organization as a secretary and she likes to go play, waste her time with her friends also her boy friend.

I never blame her because she doesnt like a situation when someone compare us.

She always stop the conversation and looks for another topic.

She always says 'We both are just same'.

I think she knows how bad my feeling when someone compares us.

Yaaaa, thats why I love her so much ♥♥

She never makes me feel a difference within us.

I love her more since we are in the same faculty.

We are more compact and have same point of view.

So please, just stop comparing.

I know, we are different. I'm the minus minus minus and she is the plus plus plus, billion of plus.

But please, it hurts. So much.

P.S: I love you my Rahajeng Arumdinari xxo

`L♥ve

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Parents

I miss both of you mom, dad. Bloody miss you.

I just cant wait to see you on December.

Be fine there.

`L♥ve

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Curcol

Hello bloggie. Long time no see. Yea actually it would be nice if now I`m in a great mood, but sadly now I`m writing with a really really bad mood *sigh*

Oke lagi-lagi saya dilema. Dan lagi-lagi mendilemakan sesuatu yang sebenernya gak penting. Dan di post ini saya akan ngomong ngelantur dan tidak mudah dipahami.

Kalau dipikir-pikir semua menjadi lebih mudah dan enteng kalo gak ada pikiran-pikiran tentang makhluk bernama pria. Ya gak? Iya kan! Emang.

Okelah lagi-lagi stuck ke masalah ini. Gak penting? Banget.

Tapi ada yang ngganjel banget sekarang ini. Trauma. Iya trauma banget. I`m not really sure but yeah I`m so scared to start it again. Hmmm no. I mean, I`m so scared if it end up with any kind of sadness.

Sial, mau gak mau pengalaman yang dulu tetep aja kebayang. Ini sangat menyiksa, mematikan, dan...... Oke aku mulai lebay. But that`s definitely true.

Aku takut kalo semisal ketergantungan itu muncul dan secara tiba-tiba kondisi tidak memungkinkan untuk lanjut. Aku takut semisal aku nyakitin dia. Aku takut kalo semisal aku gak terlalu yakin.

Aku takut

Aku takut

Aku takut

Aku takut

P.S: Sorry and thanks to you

`L♥ve

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

TIP '10

:-)

`L♥ve

♥Friday, October 01, 2010

I miss it

micu, phea, wulan, gupi, nanny, tyas, ratih, khofi, jolly, zaky, peppy, mega, mila, tiak, dini, egha, moko, triji, ucik

I miss our laughs. I miss our jokes. I miss our smiles. I miss our grins.
I miss all of you.
I miss that comfy.

`L♥ve
Thursday,September 02, 2010